Thursday, October 25, 2012

How many times will I start again?! Well...... Here we go again, he says. I will probably never give up. Like I said before, this is probably the most narcissistic thing that a person can do. Who gives a shit how I feel about things? Who cares about how much I way, or what workouts I've done? I do. And I always will. Hopefully, someone can get some insight or inspiration from my quixotic trials. Fire and brimstone could not keep me from beginning anew. Nothing in heaven or earth could keep me from tilting at windmills or dragons. I will never giv cup. Niemals aufgaben. So what's new? It's only been two years since my last post. About that time, I started developing headaches and some dizziness. It's been going on ever since. In January of 2011, I had several cases of sever vertigo. Having never had that, I was, to say the least, freaked out. I consulted several doctors (neurologists, family physicians) and no one had a clue as to what was happening. About this time, I got a call from our friendly neighborhood flight surgeon. He told me that I had failed my hearing test and that I needed to see a specialist and get a more thorough exam. For those of you who don't know, the flight surgeon has our careers in his hand. He can extinguish them with a stroke of his pen. Luckily, I hadn't failed it by enough to be immediately disqualified. I had a problem with a small range of frequencies. I went to the audiologist and had more tests done. The tests revealed that one ear had lost a portion of the frequency spectrum. When you "lose" your hearing, you lose the ability to hear across the entire spectrum. This was an indicator of a serious problem. She referred me to an ENT who ordered more tests. MRI's and balance testing. By about May of 2011, I finally had an answer. I had been diagnosed with Meniere's disease. I prefer the term syndrome. Disease sounds like you're going to die soon. The gist of the condition is that your inner ear can not clear the fluid that cycles through. The inner ear controls balance. As the condition worsens, which it always does, your ear loses the ability to control balance. This is what causes the vertigo and balance issues because it only affects one ear. I live in a constant state of dizziness. I've grown accustomed to it, to a certain extent. I have some really shitty days, but I have quite a lot of normal days as well. Unfortunately, my bad days are controlled a lot by the weather. A low pressure front will reek havoc on my head. The fullness feels like wearing a hat that is too small on one side. I have been very lucky. There are quite a lot of people that experience this that are completely debilitated. They need constant care. If your lucky, you experience "burn-out" within about 5 years. This process could take up to 10. From what I understand, "burn-out" occurs when the ear loses all control of balance and most of your hearing. The body learns to compensate for the loss of balance using other means. Mainly your sight. Using only your sight for balance is exhausting. I feel like I am getting close to this point. Unfortunately, in most cases the condition because bilateral. Meaning, it will eventually affect both ears. The biggest issue I have noticed is that Meniere's disease affects less than 1 out of every 1000 people. Not many. That's less than 800 people in indianapolis that will be affected. That's 800 people that will be affected, IN THEIR LIFETIME. So while it's not fatal, it's a huge pain in the ass. And no one knows what causes it, and there is no cure. Diet (read NO SALT)(also read SOME SALT)(also read A REGULAR AMOUNT OF SALT), diuretics and balance training can alleviate the symptoms. However, there is no magic bullet. Some things work for some people while doing nothing to help others. I've tried a lot. Some success, but then there will be an unrelated trigger and pow, down goes Frasier. BUT I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I will continue to work out. I will continue to skate. I will continue to take care of my family. Enough whining......let's tilt at windmills. Next on my agenda...another plan. P90X again. Then P90X again, so that I can be in optimal shape to train for a half Ironman again. This ghost has haunted me for a long time. There is always something that derails my plans. My goal is the Muncie 70.3. I'd also like to ride in a few bike races this summer. Depending on what happens between now and spring, I may decide on racing and doing stint triathlons. My other goal it to keep up with the blog. I promise, my loyal viewers, you will not be disappointed. Unless you want to see me fail, then fuck you. Gloria Gainer couldn't have said it any clearer, "I will survive".

Sunday, August 8, 2010

AHHH. The life of an age-grouper. I must say that the only thing that got a real workout this week was my liver. This is the way it goes. Last week ended with a trip to Lake Michigan and the Indiana Dunes. Quite a bit of my family was there and we had a great time. After getting back and squeezing in a few days of work, it was off to a Zydeco concert. Dwayne Dopsie and his Zydeco Hell-raisers. I'm pretty sure that everyone had a great time. Especially when we got asked to leave the bar at 3:00am. After smacking the shit out of a good friend all night, I woke to a huge headache. Nuff said. I do think I have a black eye though.
This is the week it all begins anew.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010


Last week was a hard "age-grouper" week. Last Monday left me spent. I haven't reffed that many games in a long time. I was finally able to work out again on Friday. (Missing two workouts in a week sucks.) Friday night i worked a midnight shift which left a few hours for sleep before friends and family came over fir a cookout Saturday afternoon. Needless to say, no workouts Saturday.
This is the life of an age-grouper. Trying to balance friends, family, work, and the day-to-day. I am still on track to complete the Monumental Half marathon in November. Never give up. Niemals aufgaben. Today is an hour bike with some basic calisthenics (push-ups and sit-ups (crunches and core)). The pool is going to be freezing when I get home. Maybe I'll skip the post workout dip. Rest assured I am getting back on track. I will finish the 'half' this fall and be on my way to an Ironman.
I think I've chosen Gleaners Food Bank as my first charity group. They are a local food bank that is struggling to make ends meet with the bad economy. So the Monumental Marathon will be run for Gleaners. I'm going to put signs up at work starting in October. That should give me plenty of time to collect some funds. As I said before, this effort is to raise awareness, not just money. If you don't live in Indy, or if you don't want to give to Gleaner's, pledge to give to someone. Pick your favorite charity and give. Find a family in need and give. Give your pare change to a homeless guy downtown. Just do something to better the world.
Thanks for listening.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Here we go gang. Another workout project. A few friends and I are starting the P90X workout system. This thing is a bitch. But it can be done. We will complete this. Yesterday was chest and back. Today, Plyometrics. This thing is a killer. There is a diet that goes with it. Up to 3000 calories a day. You have to feed the machine. That's exactly what I'm doing right now. Tomorrow, arms. Wish me luck. Peace out.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Struggling. Tomorrow is another day.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Is it really the 25th. I haven't been on this or any other log for a few weeks. Time to get cracking again. I was told that there are a few people that get a kick out of this. 'Am I a clown? Do I amuse you?' I guess so. Back at it today. Only one game to ref, and it's only an hour and a half. A good workout to get back into it. Tomorrow I start logging everything on the website again. Workouts are scheduled, and you may laugh, but I am not going to be changing my schedule around at work. If I've learned nothing else, consistency is the key. Okay now it's time to close the pool and watch the Colts. Neighbors may come over. We'll see. Peace

Friday, October 9, 2009

Part of the problem with denying yourself something is that that one thing becomes what you think about. Fridays are normally down time around here. Everyone is tired from a long work week and looking forward to Saturday. A lot of times we get together with the neighbors and hang out. Drink too much and do the same thing the next day. Without the enticement of a drink, I really just want to lay around and rest up today. I don't need a beer or a glass of wine, but the idea is a little comforting. It's a matter of being able to do what I want. Having a choice. But I will be strong. I don't care a bout the punch from Fraga. He hits like a girl. I just don't want to admit that I can't do it. This weekend will be the toughest. I know that. Once you get used to something, you can keep it up. It will be nice to wake up tomorrow without a foggy head. :)
On to food. I've been logging all of my food onto the LiveStrong website. I really is a great tool. I went to Skyline chili for lunch today. Mainly because it was convienient. I had no idea how many calories were in a 3-way or a cheese coney. Totally flabergasted. 350 cal per coney, and a regular 3-way has over 700. amazing. If I had seen that before I ordered, I would have gotten something else.
Okay enough rambling about food. My officiating went well yesterday. Lots of skating, but I felt good. A lot more confident. This Sunday, I actually have 4 games scheduled now. When I took the games in Columbus, I thought they were for the following weekend. I feel bad backing out. SOunds kike he needs some people. This could also lead to other jobs. So, 2 Bantam games Sunday morning and then 2 adult games Sunday night, And then the Colts game. Big fun